I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE ....HMMMMM.......HMMMM........ AM I SURE?

hi everybody
i thought about writing on this topic 'coz have you all wondered what we always wanted to be right from the time we started uttering words
just take ur wheel of memories in a reverse gear n u wud also wonder"ya !it always changed"

so here i am just trying to recall "WHAT I ALWAYS WANTED TO BE" 

when i first stepped into school i came across our class teacher "miss priya chablani" so pretty,so beautiful,so lovely to talk n everybody loved her she entered school empty handed n went away with a bunch of flowers ,every girl/boy wanted to share tiffin with her so i wanted to be like priya mam -a teacher

Then started another journey dad gifted me a colourful story book called"CINDRELLA"on my birthday n believe me all through my dreams i wanted to be cindrella ,one day i infact woke up to wash dishes n to look for the pumpkin cart n magical shoes those days...........very like fairy tales........in search of a charming prince
Then i came out of this dilemma that life is not a fairy tale n cindrella's fever ended up my great grandmother came to live with us from our village n like every elderly she also took her moral duty to entertain us with raja-rani,good vs evil,tales n one fine day she told us stories about India's freedom struggle she was an eye witness to it n  narrated to us in her own peculiar way with a tag line"fir bhi aaj ke jamene se angrezi raaz behtar tha" we were a;ways glued to her intresting stories full of bravery,valour n patriotism n one fine day came the story of "rani lakshmi bai"omg........i was so impressed n yes that was i wanted to be

"khub ladi mardani wo to jhansi wali rani thi"
a woman fighting against all odds for her country,for her self respect n no less than a man yes i wanted to be like that only

FIR ek din  we were asked by our house incharge to prepare a house board on "mother teresa" collecting information about her n reading about her made me realize how great the lady was so frnds 4 a time being i wanted to be mother teresa also

It was 1994 n sushmita sen became miss universe n it was "SUSH N AISH" everywhere media was full of praises indian women were recognized globaly n indeed they repesented a medium of change that was creeping into women's society i loved sush 4 that n yes .......... no need to repeat 
As i grew up i realized i was more affected by things happening around us social change,politics was my area of intrest thanx to my family where there always occured healthy discussions about political happennings my mom always adored "INDIRA GANDHI" n every discussion ended with my mom's statement"par indira ji jaisa dusra nahi aa sakta"

so when my ideas started taking proper shape i wanted to be like indira ji-a woman of fierce determination,substance,strong determination n having her own important place in a men's world

In between my heart felt with joy when "Kalpana Chawla"became 1st indian woman to go into space i loved her for her marvellous achievement,down to earth personality n simplicity

But u know what ?now i wanna be me n only me .i dont wanna be anybody else i want to be known by"Dr Pooja Tripathi" of whom my family n frnds be proud of
"I look around me
and my eyes confound me
and its coming into sight
at last happiness has found me
i dont have to search anymore 
all this time it was me i was looking for
in the dark i have found light
n it feels like never before"
sehar.........................................